Anyway ss&tt lovelies, hope your days have been good :)
xxx
- Location:living room
- Mood:
cheerful
Thankfully, I've been able to wangle my parents into buying me some Lax, because they know I havent been able to "go" in about a week.
Basically, I have "Tesco's constipation relief". It says on it to take 2. Usually with other lax I'd take about 4. Is this the same with these? I'm sorry if I'm being dumb lol, but has anyone used these before? Effects over overdosing would be helpful.
x
- Mood:
fat
3/4 cup cauliflower: 20 cals
with 1 tsp calcium butter: 40 cals
4 strawberry newtons: 200 cals (!!!!)
So if the tea i had this morning was really 200 cals....then Im at 480 cals on a day that I was supposed to have ZERO.
What the f is wrong with me?
someone help.
So Its Noon, and Ive Already Had To Many Cals, But Im Hitting The Gym Later, So Ill Be Burning Them Off, Plus More I Hope.
Really Though, I Just Wanted To Know Everyones Opinion About Whitney, The Plus Sized Model Winning, ANTM.
- Mood:Fat
I just got out of Stanford Hospital for my anorexia
I've been in there since Friday and despite contrary belief I'm only 95lbs!!!
ANDDD I only gained like 1 pound.
Amazing.
Thank you metabolism.
More importantly...
I know that I'm in recovery
And I'm really trying...but I have my doubts
I ate a big(as in a "normal" sized) breakfast which is a huge step for me
I have to see my doctor twice a week and go to Stanford's eating disorder clinic every week for check-ups
I AM NOT GOING BACK INTO THE HOSPITAL
I'm so confused...
I feel like there's no way I could maintain being anorexic
I can't become a stupid fatty
I'll miss my beautiful bones
Help me???
Please???
- Location:my bedroom
- Mood:
distressed - Music:American Pie-Don McLean
now i cant even post my stats or know if im making progress. FUCKKK...
all im eating today is 120 cals worth of cereal. and tons of water and diet soda...
soon she will realize who shes dealing with. fuckin A.
- Mood:
angry - Music:radio
omg!! im relli worried about 2nite! mum has made chilli and i always eat chilli ive used every excuse in the book and i dnt think shes goin to fall for it again help me please! shes now telling me ive got to eat it!! \arrrggg!! much love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
so yesterday i went out n bought myself a new diary. i always used to keep one with weight tracking thinspo quotes etc but its full and i havent used it for ages. and with this new chapter in my life after having a baby a new house etc i thought it was time for a new diary too. i cant get online mondays and tuesdays cos my bf is home from work and these r the days i find it hardest to stay on track writing helps me remember and deal with things better. just wanted to share tht with u, kinda useless post but hey lol
- Mood:
lazy
I dont know if any of you remeber but i posted a few weeks back saying about my boyfriend
well bad news.....he broke up with me
he said he still liked me but had confusing things going on. ive been crying for the last 2 days and have only just managed to come online to blog to you guys. i mean what a shitty excuse, whats worse is that on top of my gcse prssure has pushed me back to self harm. i hate myself.
i hate everything
it always happens
fuck fuck fuck
thin
x
<333
Much love!
- Location:Queens
- Mood: blah
- Music:Gimme More - Britney Spears
I absolutely love vitamin water but I dont drink it because of the calories. Well, in the states there is a pharmacy called Walgreens. They just put out their own kind (same flavors and everything!) and it has ZERO calories. So if you have a Walgreens near, def check it out!
Also in the states, at Stop and Shop, they now have CALORIE & SUGAR free salad dressings and they are actually pretty damn good. Just thought I would share my findings!
Hope everyone has a good day!
-A
- Mood: lazy
My stats:
Height 5'6"
HW: 130
LW: 87
CW: 120 (yes, I am totally obese)
UGW: 90
GW1: 115
Right now I'm trying to fast but failing miserably... fat fat pig. At least I have my exercise bike and new treadmill :)
<3 xx
So i completed one cycle of 2468 and was going to fast today. But then i got and binge.
This is what I had, leaving me with a huge portion of guilt: (in white)
a pomegranate (?)
2 quorn sausages (58 cals each)
chicken caesar wrap (250cals?)
2 packets of wotsits (95cals each)
toast with soured cream and chilli dip (?)
I mean what the hell possessed me?!?!?! And i feel more depressed than ever.
Great.
So here's the plan to at least attempt to reach come kind of decent existence:
Rest of today: water fasting
Next 3 days: Raw fruit and veg detox
After that: under 500 cals a day and basically just eating snack a jacks popcorn (47 cals per packet) and filling up on that and diet coke.
At least when I reach my goal weight I will feel lyke i've got some control over this pointless existance that we call life.
Sorry for the rant and the negativity =///
Hope you're all doing well
xoxo
- Mood:
crushed
love u all
SweetBeatrice
- Mood:determined
I started a new job, and love it.
AND I LOST THREE POUNDS!
I'm so happy...
For some of you this is huge but I now am:
5'6
CW: 127
GW: 120
GW:115
FGW:100
I've been plateaued forever, so this feels super good.
I hope everyone's been doing well! I can't wait to get home from work and read up on you all!
- Location:leaving for work
- Music:TTC-J'ai pas sommiel
gutted, my scales are broken
yaknow everyones talking about ana bracelets, i dont get them
i mean i understand they want to show support but do agree with glamourising it with bracelets?
i see both sides of the argument but i'm swaying towards disagreeing with them, i know this is a 'pro' anorexia group but really i see it as a support group, but the bracelets are definataly 'pro' anorexia right? So that means you are supporting a dangerous illness?
I know alot of what i just said is contradicting, its not my opinion its simply ideas
So what do you think?
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